Posts Tagged ‘ donating ’

what does it feel like?

I’m asked quite regularly what donating actually feels like. Vamps have asked me this, prospective donors have asked me this as well, as have interested outsiders. Even amongst donors we ask each other this, most recently in a post on blackswanhaven. One thing is sure: it is very difficult to describe this feeling. What words [ READ MORE ]

i miss donating

sorry that i haven’t been updating, but there’s really not been much happening on the donor front. i have donated psi a few times to a friend when their regular donor was ill, but otherwise it’s just been boring. and you know what? i really miss it. i really miss feeling so close to somebody, [ READ MORE ]

psi donation

last night i donated psi for the first time in over half a year. i’d forgotten how powerful the feeling could be, and there was one moment when the vampire started pulling more strongly that was almost a little bit scary. but very soon i felt the steady flow of energy leaving me, and deep [ READ MORE ]

looking at my scars

a little over a month ago i became a sang donor. i’d been intending to be a sang donor from the very beginning, when i first knocked on the doors of the vampire community. but as things go, even after i met (online) the vampire whose sang donor i was to become we couldn’t meet [ READ MORE ]

been a while

these “been a while” posts, also “i need to update more often” and similar, are often bad signs on blogs, indicating that the blogger has kind of lost interest in the subject and wandered off to do something else, like getting a life. actually, something like that has happened to me (getting a life, of [ READ MORE ]

what it feels like

recently i wrote here that being fed on feels good for me. i stand entirely by that statement, but want to elaborate. the only slight difficulty is with words, i don’t know what words to use to accurately describe the sensations i experience. from what i’ve read and talked about with other donors, i get [ READ MORE ]

really glad that i waited

regarding last night’s post, i’m really glad that i waited just that little bit longer for S to appear. i was really about to feed a vamp in the chat (or several vamps, don’t know how that would have worked). i think maybe 15 minutes more, and it would have been done. with all the [ READ MORE ]

four days

it’s been four days since i donated. four days, that might not sound like a lot. after all i went some thirty years without donating previously. but something’s changed. two, maybe three days after being fed on i start to get edgy, nervous. sleep gets bad, shallow, continuously interrupted. it’s been four days now. and [ READ MORE ]

a simple truth

here’s a truth so simple that it’s almost stupid. donating feels good. donating feels pretty damn good, even. there’s the feed itself, the anticipation as your vampire gets ready, the build-up in your body as you prepare to release your energy. then the gasping shock as they pierce your system, the massive flux of energy [ READ MORE ]

jealousy take two

in my last post i announced that i wanted to talk about jealousy, and i did start that post yesterday, but got utterly stuck. then late last night somebody (jinx, but it’s an anonimous email) posted this comment to the post: So tell us more about the H and S vampires. Why are you drawn [ READ MORE ]

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